I'm not complaining about anything today. It's 8:00 in the morning, it's sunny and beautiful outside, and I have coffee.
Working backwards, the last three weeks have been terrible. I had vertigo for three weeks, and if you've never had it, it feels awful. Not only is it very uncomfortable, but scary. Vertigo isn't really a condition, but a symptom, and if you Google vertigo and headache it becomes even more scary. Especially if you've been to the ear, nose and throat specialist and they come up with nothing. The next thing that comes up is cancer, which is pretty much the only thing that comes up when you consult with Dr. Google for any combination of symptoms.
The effect of all this, is that I didn't feel like myself - it's like walking around in a haze, and I was exhausted by all of the work my body and mind had to do to keep me upright. I had trouble talking as well, and I couldn't read. Literally. If I tried to read my eyes would skip some words, and replace others. It's a real strain on your eyes when the world is spinning.
And yesterday, after three weeks of walking around on what felt like some other planet, something gave. My ears burned, my sinuses felt like someone had a vice on my head, and even my jaw ached. All at once. I felt this for about 20 minutes, had a panic attack, and then...poof. The dizziness left.
After that, I still had dull aching pains where the dizziness once lived, but I survived. Today, I can read and write, and nothing feels terrible. I'm still a little achy, but I'm guessing whatever was in there expanded everything, and now it's shrinking back to normal size.
That said, the ear, nose, and throat specialist looked at my ears and throat, but had neglected to consider my nose. By process of elimination, that leaves only my nose and sinuses. And I can't believe that they could be the source of such a terrible feeling.
So I'm writing today, courtesy the explosion in my head. Not only has it cleared the vertigo, but I think it's cleared the path to a lot more of this, and a lot less of that other thing that was making me feel like a lost, lonely alien.
Makes me wonder how much of it was all in my head.
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